Yesterday I had no real concept of what in the heck a "Blog" was, and here I am today, attempting to create one of my very own. Life is fun, isn't it? OK, if all goes well, this will be my first journaling endeavor since the piece that was piublished, so many years ago. So, what exactly IS a URL, and I wonder if this thing is going to mutate into a site that I"m not allowed to go to?
Oh, I have to get that nap that I've told everyone I was gonna have now. I'm home early from work, b/c my sinuses are pretty bad. And sinus meds aren't doing a whole lot of good. So, instead of potentially losing a bunch of writing, I will put this up and see if I can actually retrieve it at will!! Wonder if someone came up w/ this as a reaction to MSN making their chat COST, now?


12-18-03, 12:28am
My eldest son is currently experiencing a fascination with his Wooter, I suppose. He can't seem to keep his hands out of his underpants, and wants to "moon" me 24/7. I know this is likely a very average thing, but it is disconcerting to me. I have NO desire to see his butt all the time. It's almost like there is a seductive spirit involved. Strange. YEsterday I rebuked the punk, and this morning b4 school, I prayed w/ B in a similar fashion. Seems to make a difference, but not a big one at this point.
Asked my spouse if there was any chance B might have seen "something" at his place, which led directly into dh making it all about HIM, and how if I think he is so bad, I ought to keep the boys away from him. I tried to reason w/ him, that anyone I knew that had been into that crap at any time, I would ask the same thing of. Sheesh. If the kid was overly interested in beer, now, I would do the same thing....NOt about being a bad person. But I can only wonder if it's b/c HE feels like he's no good, that he is trying to make it sound like I feel that way, too. I don't know. AFter the holidays I plan to speak to legal folks about child support, and I know he will be livid, and/or he will immediately leave, but I have no choice, and the boys deserve to have SOMETHING consistant from their Daddy, other than consistant anger, fear, cynicism, and INstability. I love him so much, but if he doesn't get help for the mental thing, soon, I guess I will know it is over. Concrete signs will be necessary before the middle of January.
Fighting sinus infection. Boys got flu vaccines yesterday. Grandma took them, and they were both VERY good, I hear. ) Of course they were.
Thank You, Lord, for my 2 angels. ANd moreso, thank You for Your kindness and love and mercy. I want to know You more......